Whoa, long time no update! haha I'm in college now, and I love it! I'm so glad that God has led me to George Fox, it's such a wonderful and welcoming place. I've met some amazing people so far, and I'm looking forward to meeting even more. I have such a busy and fabulous year ahead of me!!

There's many things that seems very daunting right now and I have my worries, but I need to give all up to God. I'm still trying to figure a LOT out, including where I am in my walk with Christ. I've let things slip for too long. There's a lot to be done. I need to find the motivation and strength to push through all these doubts that have been clouding my mind for far too long. Here I am at a Christian  university, surrounded by such Godly men and women, and I feel almost like a faker. I've been surrounded by God's love my whole life, but now I'm not sure I fully ever accepted it, truly. And that scares me ever so much. It's absolutely terrifying.

I don't want to sound like a downer, but this is probably the most honest I've ever been about my own religiousness. I wish I had something more positive to say right now, but everything good that I should be thankful for is a million miles away....

i'm a senior in high school.
so much has happened to me this year, mostly good!!

i had my first job for a while, at coldstone.
i got my first car, which is old and funky, but i love it :]
i got accepted to both colleges i wanted, and i'm prety sure i'll be at george fox university next fall.
i am a-choir alto section leader :]
i am going on a-choir tour to washington d.c. at the end of may!!!!
i have made a lot of new friends in the past year, some have become bests friends :]
i was in the fall and winter plays at my school, and now i have one of the leads in the spring musical (state fair) :]
i finally got my first real kiss :]
i am competing at state competition for mezzo soprano voice this saturday, since i got 2nd in districts :]
i got 2nd at this year's mr. & ms. cavs :]
i am dating a wonderful boy named taylor (we're giving it a second go lol) :D
i am going to my senior prom this saturday with a beautiful dress, an amazing date, and a spectacular group!
...and somehow, i made prom court :]


as you can see, that's a lot of smiley faces.
what a seriously awesome year.
this literally is THE best year of my life, thus far :]

so i was sitting in history class today.
my mind wandering.
and i just totally remembered this one website.
called xanga.

and how i haven't been on in EONS.
so junior is hard.
it will definitely be my hardest year of school yet.
I'm in two choir classes,
precalculus (i think it's becoming one of my favorite classes)
chemistry
Honors American Studies English & US History
Aerobics
and French 2
and then everything else too.
ha.

so.
updates on my life:

• I'm still single. It's kinda a relief. But I wish I knew what I was doing for winter formal.
• I painted my room light pink last summer and traded with my sister for a bigger bed.
• I'm making some new friends this year in my classes, since I don't very many with my closest gals.
  
• still don't know what the musical for this year is, but I'm feeling more confident this year. I took an audition drama class @ PSU last summer, so I think I will MUCH better this year at my audition.
  
• I still don't have my license.
  
• Actually, I lost my permit too.
• Still don't have a job, but it's fine with me. I still want to be kid while I can.
• and I still ride the bus. Yeah. I'm just cool like that.

I'm done. For now at least.
I don't know if I'm going to the college fair at school or campus life yet.